Life, Fiber, Books and All











Or NOT!

Anyway, I created this blog as a way to share my feelings, thoughts and experiences, yet remain uninhibited. I wanted to be able to be completely truthful without fear of reprucussion and to be well, me.

Unfortunatly things have changed, and someone whom I don’t want reading my most personal thoughts and feelings can read this. He has been told about it by someone. So some of the posts have been hidden, and the rest can go into the tomb of dead blogs.

I have decided to end “Life, Fiber, Books and All”.

I somehow doubt I’ll start another blog. Probubly jsut vent inside myself. Rather dangerous I know, but safer then hvaing something come back and bite me in the ass. Unless of course my headaches get worse.

Ah well.

You know who you are, and I would apprecete knowing what freind told you about this blog. But of course don’t expect an answer.

Have a good life everyone, be well and safe and have fun!!!

 

Guinevereanne



{December 2, 2008}   You would be Surprised…..

You would be surprised by the idiocy of some. No, seriously. People are soooo dumb, its hard to believe.

 

For example, on my way home I come down a hill and then go strsight for a while and then I come to a curve. Now, I have three choices there. I can go left (and soon get home), I can go right (and go on a very long 7 mile round about way home) or I can go straigh, and drive into a house. Infront of the house there is a brand new bright yellow flourescent sign with a double ended arrow pointing left and right. Why you really need a sign there telling you you have to go left or right instead of driving into a house is beside me. Personally I would rather see that money go to repairing a few pot holes. But apparently it is more imporant to tell idiots to turn and not drive into a house. And after all, I know the house has stood for 150 odd years, and it hasn’t been driven into yet, so of course some idiot needs the sign to tell them not to drive into it now.

 

Another thing is, apparently people forget how to park after its snowed. I know some people get all excited when it snows, and they are so happy and joyful and sickening. Other people get all grumpy and bumpy and gloomy and refuse to move for fear the snow will invade inside and they will slip and break a hip.

I LOVE snow. I like it, I can’t stand walking in it or driving in it, or being cold because of it. But otherwise I LOVE snow. Its so pretty and soft and white and sparkly and I just love it. Just keep it on the other side of the fence. I also don’t like driving it it. Keep it on the sides of the road, and give me at least two of those nice bone dry gray strips to drive it, or better yet give me a whole road of dry so I can put cruise control on. I LOVE cruise control!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, people are idiots in the snow, some people are afraid to be out driving so they go so slow they literally become a danger. Other people ignore the snow and go so fast they are also a danger (they always are, but the snow makes them more so). I know some men, and probubly women, who will brush off their whole vehicle, except where the liscense plate is. Then they will speed, and cut corners, and ignore traffic laws and signs because they know no one can see what they liscense plate number is.

And, apparently because it is snowy and no one had plowed the parking lot it is okay to park whereever you want. And by wherever you want I mean, following the handicapped and no parking signs (which are painted on the ground, which you cannot see) but taking up two or three spots with your tiny car. Literall, I saw lots of free room in the parking lot (a small parking lot, which services the four busyest buildings), however none of the room would fit more then a motorcycle. People were ignoring the lines and the space and just parking where ever they felt like. I personally parked in the first spot I could find (in this parking lot you aren’t picky, you just park). I knew I could fit there, and I did. I parked wonderfully, not hitting either car on either side of me, or the one infront of me. Then I tried to get out, OOPS. I couldn’t fit out the door.

My car door could open approximatly 2 inches, unfortunatly I am wider then 2 inches, and so is my bag with books. So I had to pull out and find another spot, and I was very tempted to just swipe the two cars. (they had again parked so stupidly, taking up enough space for 5 cars between the two of them). And trolled slowly looking for a parking spot. And I did find one after 5 minutes, in the very back. And of course then I had to walk throught the slush to the door. I, silly me, am wearing very good green sneakers. They are awesome for the summer. Unfortunatly they have holes in the sides, perfect for letting air flow freely, or slush flow through. My feet were literally soaking in icy cold slush by the time I got inside. And now, about 5 hours later my feet are freezing cold and still very wet. I do NTO look forward to going back outside to the slush. Although I am absolutly going to find my winter shoes. Big and cluncky and not nice looking, but warm and mostly water proof.

 

People are so dumb! And I know that I am constantly amazed by it. But still, how can you be so dumb???????? Really, I know that talking on your cell phone while driving is imporant, even if it is illegal. But so is actually stopping for a red light instead of sailing through it (while traffice is using the intersection). *kisses breaks*.

Seriously! Try getting a brain transplant or something. I cannot watch out for you and stop you from byeing or getting injured to a stupid mistake. I refuse to babysit anyone, okay I refuse to babysite adults. And really, as a tutor in a college I find thats what I have to do. And frankly I don’t. Which probubly makes me a bad tutor, but I don’t care.

 

GET BRAINS PEOPLE! LEARN HOW TO USE THEM PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Idiot- the worst curse in the world, according to me.

idiocy- what an idiot is.

 

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On another note, I finished “Between Silk and Cynide”

 

It was very, very good. And highly enjoyable. And when I am home and have the book I will finish my reveiw. Until then, I still highly recomend it. At the same time I will warn you at the very end it becomes much sadder. You learn what happened to agen’s Leo Mark’s was worried about, and it is truely terrible. I have always known that people died, and how some of them died. But never before have I been so invested in them, never before has it stuck me so much. I don’t know if that is because it was an adult book and I am an adult, if Leo Marks was such a strong and incredible writer, or because of some off phase of the moon.

I do know that it has renewed an interest in WW II, and interest I have had since I was about 12 years old. But with classes and stress the way they are now I don’t knwo if I will actually be able to find anything to read, or if I will want to. Now I just want fun, interesting, somewhat light, and occasionally uplifting books. AKA, I don’t want anything too serious or depressing. Life and life and lfie are too serious and depressing at the moment, I really hate to take on any from someone else.

 

-Guin



“Between Silk and Cyanide”

Leo Marks

I have been reading the book for a while now. Its hefty and long and about 620+ pages. The middle has several glossy sheets with black and white photo’s, of both him and a few others, and codes. The pages are semi-thick. Not thin enought to see through, and not coloring paper thick. The print is easy to read, and the type DOES NOT SMUDGE!!!!!!!!!!! (Yes, that makes me immensly happy. I read text books alot lately and they smudge terrible, to the point of becoming illegible).

It is written in the first person, as himself (aka, Leo Marks). He writes about his experiences during the second World War as head of communications in SOE (Special Operations Executive). He started the book with how he got into cryptology, and an admittance that he has only told one person why he REALLY wanted to work with codes.

He trained somewhere (sorry, can’t remember where now, and I don’t feel like getting the book) and was considered decidedly NOT promising. To the point that he was never introduced to the brilliant code maker incharge of operations at the OTHER British service during the war (I blieve it was MI-5).

After he interveiwed with SOE he is put in a room to decode a code. After 20 minutes the man who interveiwed him looks in, and is surprised he isn’t close to done. He looks in 1or 2 more times and then gives up. After Leo finishes decoding it (many hours) he brings it to the mans office. The man remarks that one of his girls could have done it in 20 minutes. As Leo is leaving the man asks where the key is. Leo tells him that he never gave him a key. Suddenly he is hired and the code (which until that time was an active code, used in the field) is tossed aside. If one young man can break it then certainly the enemy could as well. Marks finds himself not only hired, but put incharge of SOE code department (or something liek that)

It gets more entangled and more interesting. And I defintily find that my reading of Kim Philby’s autobiography “My Silent War” has added to my understanding and appreciation of this book. I wish I knew more of the English history of that time period as I defintily think that would also add to the book.

Leo Marks focuses alot on his struggle to come up with better codes for agents (who used Peom codes when he started in SOE), and better ways for the codes to be used. So, instead of carrying a poem around inside your head and transposing and configuring the code for every single message the agents would have “silks” with codes written on them. The codes would be used one time, then cut off and burned. Thus it would “greatly” decrease the amount of coding mistakes, and pretty much do away with the need for security checks. Which apparently most agents forgot about or miffed in some way. The new “silks” would also “do away” with the indiciferables. Messeges that have been miffed or “hatted” or messed up in some way so that it can not be decifered.

So far he has also focused on the Dutch and the Dutch agents. He beleives that at least one of those agents has been captured by the Germans, and works very hard to prove this. However, only after he has sent an indeciferable, which only a trained cryptologist could break, does he realize that he should be doing two things. Proving to his superiors that the Dutch agents have been compromised (which he was already trying to do), but not alerting the Germans that he knows the agent has been compromised, thus extending his life expectancy.

And well, I’m not even half way through.

Its a very good book, and for anyone interested in codes I highly recomend it. It goes into some detail, even explaining how to break one type of code. It isn’t really an espianoge book, which was what I had bought it hoping it was. But its very good. Kim Philby’s “My Silent War” was more an espianage book. It detailed what he did and how and the troubles he faced. And was very dull,  and long. At the same time being a very tiny book.

“Between Silk and Cyanide” is a much shorter read, a much longer book. Its more interesting, more and elss technical. Kim Philby goes into names and addresses and all sorts of bits, while Leo Marks goes into how and why. Kim was very philisophical and almost “above” his readers while Leo is right there beside you. Very human and a bit humorous.

I really look forward to seeing how the books progresses. And defintily beleive that he won’t keep his word to just deal with codes and forget all about the Dutch and the meaning of hte messages he decodes. If he does keep his word I suspect the book will become duller.

On another note, Tanksgiving Day in the USA is coming up. My parents are having some of their freinds over. So we will have a full house. I suspect I will grab my mac and cheese (standard holiday fare for me) and hibernate by the computer. I really hate seeing them eat all that meat, it looks and smells bad to me. But hey, thats vegetarian for you.

On an entirly different note I have another new weird bit. I have taken to finger spelling in ASL (american sign language) words. Any words I think of, hear, see, read, anything. Now I am trying very hard not to spell out these sentences. Its very odd, and alot liek resaying sentences inside my head, again and again and again.

At first it was kind of cool, just practicing finger spelling, something I’m pretty bad at (hey! To fingerspell you need to know how to SPELL the word). but now its more then annoying. And its soooo hard to stop myself.

Link to “Between Silk and Cyanide” http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Between-Silk-and-Cyanide/Leo-Marks/e/9780684867809/?itm=1

And “My silent War” http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/results.asp?WRD=my+silent+war

Sleep well all, and wish me luck. More and more and more mathmatics tomarrow! (save me! I am drowning!!!!!!)

 

Guin



{November 1, 2008}   Dragons!

Gotta love dragons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Visit mine: http://dragcave.net/user/guinevereanne

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Take a look. http://dragcave.net/

Apparently yo adopt abandond eggs and then try and get the dragon to hacth. hopefully it will be cute.



I really wish I knew, ’cause then I could blame things on “fate” or whatever.

When I was younger I was really sick for a long time, and that changed everything completely. Now, its not like I was diagnosed with some illness and it was life changing and all. It happened gradually. And I happened to fall into a compeltely different path. I went from being someone who expected to go to a great school somewhere out of state, and do fantastic things.

And, not I’ve gone to a private college *one class*, a community college *1 year* and now a state college *This is my second year here*. And I plan to attend another state college and get a degree in plant biology.

I *was* going to major in art and be an art teacher. Or maybe fufill my real dream and be a dancer or actress.

Do you see the complete difference of reality?

Yah, me too!

And yah, maybe I would have ended up doing biology before, but some how I doubt it. And I know that I won’t do the whole actress/dancer thing. And the whole art teacher is unlikely. Sure, I’d still love those things. But I’m not sure that teaching art would give me the same joy it would have before.

Did life make me who I am? Did it do the whole complete change of reality? Or did I make life what it is. Did my passivity, or past, or whatever make life into this complete antithesis?

 

I really want to know, did I make my life? Or did my life make me?

 

Yes, you can get into the whole “nature or nurture”, which is probubly the exact same question. But it doesn’t fit.



{August 20, 2008}   #IG XANA = entertainment!

Today someone from the guild of XANA IG’d us. I of course answered as a good HK should! And I was highly entertaining, if only to myself. And, I thought I would post that conv here. Of course edited t exclude everything but the #ig’s and a few other choice words *perhaps*

Dedicated to CCG:

#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] hello all 🙂
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] hi there
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] hi guin hows u?
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] feel like throwing up, otherwise great
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] you?
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] ewwwwwwwwwwwwww tmi
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] you ask, I answer 😉
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i guess i did but i did not ecpect a responce like that
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] today I have  a philosophy of pure honesty.
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] can I ask what you expected as an answer if you asked me how I was? The standard “okay”?
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] just a i am ok or fine would have been nice
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] but not honest
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] should I lie?
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] y alot of other ppl do
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] but lieing isn’t very nice.
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] ya i know
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i did not want to know u wanted to throw up that was wtmi
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] then you should really rephase your questions
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] perhaps “How are you?” *disclaimer* the answer must be “fine” or “okay”
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] nornamly ppl just say i am good or not feeling well not that u want to throw up
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] we’re allies, should I blunt the truth for you? Or be honest
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] what does us being allies have to do with it
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] allies are honesdt with one another. they don’t tell lies
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i see what that has to do with me asking u i am not asking as a lly
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] are you asking as a freind? an aquantance? a stranger?
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] I assumed you were speaking as an allie since xana is that and I have never met you
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] at this moment we dont know each other well we r strangers
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] however I know xana as an allie guild
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] DUH i know that
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] why else would you be talking to us other then as an allie if you didn’t know us?
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i used to be in the boc guild i have friends in there still
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] awesome! However I have never met you before. So I have to speak to you as a an allie until I know you as a freind
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] there is no guarentee in the friendship area
#Ig [Krones->XANA] hi Krystal, I feel like throwing up
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i do to now thanks
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] why is their no gaurentee? We were both in the same guild. We are bot hallies
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] very sorry to hear that.
#Ig [SunShine->XANA] stop talking about throwing up
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] why?
#Ig [SunShine->XANA] just say i feel ill
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] *throws up on SS*
#Ig [Krones->XANA] throwing up is fun, what’s wrong?
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] *hands out shower towels and cleaning colutions*
#Ig [SunShine->XANA] its called a eating disorder
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] I am very sorry to hear you feel “ill”
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] care to elaborate on your illness. I can

[Krones @ 52361]: ROFL
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: *wairs*(
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: poor sunny*
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: waits
[Krones @ 52361]: I think Krystal will puke lol
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: too true
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: good news it I won’t!
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i dont want to hear about ppl throwing up
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] then don’t ask how people feel. you might get a true answer
#Ig [MooN_sTAr->XANA] hi kry
#Ig [Krones->XANA] we haven’t. *yet*
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] and I said I FEEL, not that I have

[Krones @ 52361]: ROFL
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: *wairs*(
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: poor sunny*
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: waits
[Krones @ 52361]: I think Krystal will puke lol
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: too true
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: good news it I won’t!
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i dont want to hear about ppl throwing up
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] then don’t ask how people feel. you might get a true answer
#Ig [MooN_sTAr->XANA] hi kry
#Ig [Krones->XANA] we haven’t. *yet*
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] and I said I FEEL, not that I have

[Krones @ 52361]: ROFL
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: *wairs*(
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: poor sunny*
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: waits
[Krones @ 52361]: I think Krystal will puke lol
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: too true
[guinevereanne @ 52361]: good news it I won’t!
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i dont want to hear about ppl throwing up
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] then don’t ask how people feel. you might get a true answer
#Ig [MooN_sTAr->XANA] hi kry
#Ig [Krones->XANA] we haven’t. *yet*
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] and I said I FEEL, not that I have
#Ig [Krones->XANA] completely different things, you see. Intention and acting
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] i dont care it u have to or need to i did not want to know i have how all is doing and it turned inot a big debate
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] we were honest. you are the one who apparently has a problem with it
#Ig [KrystaliS:XANA] nvm i wont ask u all that again see ya bye
#Ig [Krones->XANA] ask something else next time 😉
#Ig [guinevereanne->XANA] it was nice chatting, have a good day. And do feel better!

 

😀

 

Man, now I don’t feel like throwing up at all! And of course I am literally laughing outloud.

 

Hope it answers your questions ccg. Guin



{May 12, 2008}   Vacation!!!!!!!!!!

So, very simply put I’m on vacation!!!!!!!!!!

 

I finished up classes this last Wensday and feel so light, fluffy and relaxed!!!!!! Its amazing, never before have I really been burned out from school, I’ve never really wanted to end school and just stop. So, I spent Thursday just sleeping and fooling around, and then going off to a spinning group. Unfortuantly the spinning group is moving to wensday and I’m going to have classes on wensday.

 

I’m not sure how I feel about having school during the summer. I know that I need to be around people and do something constructive as I tend to get worse when I’m by myself doing just fun stuff. And I know that I’ll enjoy the classes as Susan Baker will b teaching it, and chemistry should be fun. But it is during the summer, and I doubt that the school has air conditioning. At least in the older building (where I’ll have class). After chemistry ends I’ll start the second summer session and do US History II.

Everyone thinks I’m insane. Chemistry apparently freaks people out. They’re all scared of it, and they all haed it in high school, and did I meantion that they’re all scared of it? Oh, and everyone seems to have US History as well. So who knows………..

Anyway, I’ll have this week off before starting classes on the 19th of May. I’ve also signed up for classes for the fall. A math class, physics, advanced technical writting and American Sign Language I. I’m hoping I’ll ahev a bit of a head start with ASL because I went to a camp for deaf people when I was younger and we had to learn ASL. I’m also hoping I’ll be much better at reading peopels signs, I could do them just fine. I just had trouble reading what they said.

I got braces this last Tuesday, and of course by Friday I had managed to break one of them. So I’ll have to stop by the orthidontist on Monday and get it reglued. I’ll also need to stop by the hospital and have blood drawn for a test. Of course the blood test requires that you fast so no eating before going in. And because I know I’ll get a really disgusting mouth if I eat before having the brace fixed I won’t eat before then either.

I also have a dentist apointment on Monday, so fun. And I plan on driving to Augusta to get my books for the summer sessions as well as see if the portfolios I dropped off for the teachers to grade have been graded.

I’m going to go looking for a new spinning group to find this week as well, so hopefully I’ll find a few that might work.

Yesterday I spent alot of the day washing fleeces. I washed the pound of Rambouillet from Homestead Wool and Gift Farm. And that was so fun and nice!!!! I love how clean and fresh and nice their fleeces and fiebrs are!!! (I also got a pound of washed white cotswold locks, a pound of washed border lanchester, and 8oz of washed white Randy McNair romney (soooo soft!). The pound of raw Jacob was accidentally left out of the package so their sending that.

Yesterday I also finally got the one pound of Rambouillet  I purchased off ebay from  ita-kk. Its fithy and I did multiple washes to try and get it clean, it also took forever to get here. So I am defintily telling them my expirience and that I am very, VERYdisapointed.

Speaking of disapointed I also was totally honest on my teacher and class reveiw and even signed the comment section so it will be in their permananet records. I didn’t last semsester with my worst teacher and I so regreted it!!!!!!!!



{April 18, 2008}   I’ve hid the Dead Ducks

I’ve hid the dead ducks!

 

In the drawing classroom their are two dead and stuffed ducks on the shelves “full” of still life objects (read, no still life objects. Almost nothing actually). They’re very bald- ie most of the feathers have either been plucked off or have fallen out- totally gross and B-cat apparently loves to have us draw them. Oh, and they are also preserved with arsnic, a very deadly  poison. How lovely!

 

Well, I am sick of drawing them! Everyone else in the class is sick of drawing them! And they have been there for well over 20 years! They’re evil! And last class wehn we were leaving Ama (very nice tall girl, friend. Also in 2-d design) and I really stuggles with not tossing those damn ducks out the door into a snow bank.

I’m just too nice to break them, or ruin them. Although I REALLY wanted to! And I dreamed about shoving them into the trash can, but I just couldn’t really bring myself to do it. (pluss someone would have found them when they changed the garbage).

I also thought about bring some plastic bags, stuffing the ducks int othe bags and brining them homne to burn or trash. This was stopped by the fact I didn’t want them inside my lovely car.

So, I hid them. They are hidden in an empty drawer, at the bottom of a set of drawers and cupboards. The drawer was labeled with something (I think a professors name), but it was empty. So I shoved those damn dead ducks into that drawer, moved back the load of packages, boxes, furnature and like that was infront of it and became increadibly happy. (Of course I also srubbed my hands until they were red).

I also found the very nasty little bubble vase which he loves to have us draw and hid them behind a load of boxes, however it didn’t join the ducks as class had almsot started and people were coming in.

 So, on the school front: I have a million large projects that all of my professors have suddenly decided were a good idea for us to do at the last minute~ I HATE school!!!!!! Evil!

Drawing: B-cat is eveil and stupid. According to a past drawing student I met he even admited the last class that he cannot draw. Which explains why he never shows us how to do anything, gives us demonstrations or help. But that doesn’t explain why he TEACHES a DRAWING class! And why he always tells people their work is terrible or junk or all wrong. But neevr explains why its terrible, junk or all wrong. And apparently I’m his new favorite person to do this too. The guy he was doing this too has started skipping class. And oh, guess what, I skipped last class to. However it was only a trip to an art museum where B-cat was having an exibit. I was NOT going to listen to himself talk about how great his work is, how great he is and all that SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! It also explains why he has absolutly no concept of how long something takes. He says soemthing only takes a three hours max, I end up spending Friday, Saterday and Sunday doing the projects!

The project he literally gave us no instructions on and keeps refering to as terrible, all wrong and all that shit. Of course everyone else in the class thinks its the best one. And I’m one of the 5 people (now) who actually did it. It is a “collage” of blacks, whties and grey’s ripped fom magazines (or bought paper in my case) glued together to create the collage:

 

collage still life/black and white

See, its dumb and stupid but it actually looks liek the still life. Everyone elses was just a grey mass, if they did it.

The last project we had for drawing was do do a still life (another one *groan*) in either stippling or cross hatching. Now, I had origionally planned on doing mine in cross hatching but Pat (the wonderful amazing and talented art teacher I have had since I was 7 years old) convinced me that stippling would be easer.

For those who do not know what stippling is, it is also known as pointalism. Bascially it is going “tatatatatatat” on a piece of paper with your pen. Where you want black you do that alot, grey for a while, and white you don’t dot at all. I have personally gone through 4 pens with stippling. I HATE it! And its an annoying and terrible sound. Again of course B-cat went on and on how terrible it was, how wrong it was and all that. Again, other students though it was great, I spend 3 DAY working on it, it actually looked like the still life, and I was one of the few people to actually do it.

Don’t mind the yellow or unfocused ness. It was the best pic. Also ignore the fact that shadows go in different directions. I relyd on the light from windows nad that naturally varied as time passed from 11am to 11pm.

2-D design is a much betetr class. But alot of time where we just go over the same thing, too much inclass work time (I’d rather work at home where I actually have space to work. We’re not in an art room. Where in a very small classroom with micro sized tables), and basically its a dull class. But the professor Hellane, is very nice, and the students are nice na dI have some friends. Which totally makes a difference.

One of our last assignments was to make a load of color swatches on watercolor paper with guache. I just love mixing colors so it was fun, and rather mindless. I took a rather scientific approach to it. I systematically worked through each color combination possible (with just two colors), and then some of the combinations possible with three colors. Now, the other thing was I misread the insrtuctions, and I was a little bit “off”. But I had time to correct that.

I cut out tear drops (easy to cut out, and they showed the color well.), and then grouped them by color. I played with how to place them on the black foam core. But i nthe end I ended up creating “flowers” with 5 of the “tears” for petals. I grouped them like I would for a color wheel. The middle flower in yellow to orange. Then I also grouped them so they made circles (kind of liek the color wheel was spiriling outward). So it went from yellow-ornage-pinky red-red-pruple/red-purple-violet-purple/blue-blue-tealish-tourquoise-blue/green-green-greeny/brown-browns-grey-black. Not exactly a color wheel, but close eneough.  I also cut out circles from watercolor paper I had painted black with Indea ink and glued those circles onto the center of the flowers. Partially to make them work better together as a whole, and partially because some fo the flower centers weren’t as net as I had meant them to do. Best nes is this was my best project yet according to the teacher! I actually got an A!!!!!!!!!!

Don’t mind the fact that its pre cutting into a pentagon shape (with at least a 1 inch baorder all around) and that its also sideways and onto of a bunch of junk.

 I’d show you one of the other two projects I just finished because it just looks so cool. Unfortunatly my Dad stole them and took them to decorate his office before I managed to take a pic or 5.

On the Fiber front I got a large and packed full package from Sandy of  [Homestead Woll and Gift Farm] (http://www.homesteadwoolandgiftfarm.com/). Which is very exciting! Yesterday when I should have been at the museum I actually packaged and labled all fo the fiber. I had hoped the weigh them and and record them and photo them. But the good camera is dead and the scale needs new batteries (I can get it to work for about 30 seconds by rubbing the batteries on my shirt and replacing them). So Bacially I just repackaged them into closable plastic bags and labled the bags.

I also started to repackaged and weigh out the medical cotton roving I purchased from an ebay seller. Again the scale and the camera. So its just pulled into really long pieces, braided and shoved into labled bags. Now, the medical cotton seemed like a much better idea then it atcually was. The fibers are shorter then I had expected. Now, I take a bunch of pills, adn the ones that I purchase in bottles (not the prescriptions ones) come in bottles stuffed with this sterile medical cotton. And the fibers aree really soft and long, easily drafted nad very nice. So I’ve often thought that medical cotton would be great to spin. When I saw the very cheap ($8.50 total for over 1.8lb of medical cotton, including shipping) stuff on ebay, I jumped. And I defintily jumped too soon!

I am also expecting several boxes of fleece I have ordered through ebay,a nd I realized (post) that perhaps that wasn’t the best idea. I know tht Sandy has wonderful fleeces, and I love to support a rescue farm. And I don’t really know if the fleeces on ebay are what people say, if the yhave bugs, or dandruf, or even if they’re string enough or well skirted, or have dung tags. And of course NONE of the fiber has come so far, which just ups the anxiety. And I really shouldn’t have purchased them. Oh, and did I meantion that I just bid on yet another bag of fleece, even though I should be getting around 8lb already. So yah, I’m really smart. And short on money. Anyone want some soon to be washed fresh sheeps fleece? Will be a very reasonable price! IE, basicallly fleece cost and shipping costs.

All of my professors have suddenly decided that we need to do large very labor intensive projects, and of course htye’re due this friday-saterday or monday. So instead of doing this I should be doing soemthing productive. And of course I feel really crappy, I’m coming down with

A) nasty cold

B) the flu

C) Another very nasty bought of depression (which was lifting)

D) a psychotic break or

F) all of the above.

On the fiber front I actually dyed some fiber, after digging through a load of winter storage to get the the white undyed top I purchased. And I dyed some icicle (sparkly stuff) which is so pretty and so fun!!!!!!!!!

I gifted a crocheter who makes losts of felted bags, is in my drawing and 2-d class, and is looking to start her own buisness with these three skeins (not all pic’d)

I call it “Purple Candy Swirl” its a very bulky 3-ply of hand dyed (bady, by me) pencil roving. 100% wool, organic until I dyed it. Its going to really felt very well! Particularly as its already partially felted! The recipient was very happy and kept asking how much it was ($). Of course I haven’t worked out that equation yet.

Spinning:

 This is about 600m of 2-ply lace weight. It is 70/30 Fawn Alpaca/Tussah silk. The roving was purchased from [Halcyon Yarns] (http://www.halcyonyarn.com/index.html) however you can purchase it from almost any fiber store. Its one of those staples like merino roving and 100% wool roving. Something EVERYONE has, and if the ydon’t have it, well give them a few months and they will. It was OMG!!!!!!!!!! So soft and lvoely and snuggly! I admored spinning it. I do with that I had used like a bowl or something to hold the fiebr as I was spinning as I did lose a bit due to stickage to my cloths and stuff. But dreamy! Mum happens to ask me every chance she gets who I’m giving it to (*hint, hint, hint*). I’m not giving it to anyone, I lvoe it so! But I may let her knit something nice from it. Maybe a lovely lace shawl! Pure heaven! called “Silken Fawn” not very creative, but very acurate!

 This is “Spring Bud”, and the larger skein. 429 meters for this skein, 28 m for the mini navajo ply skein. Its very loft and my first “true” three ply. I don’t count the “Purple Candy Swirl” just because and I don’t coild navajo ply as its one strand make into three, not three strands to start with. Although I adore navajo plying! So fun! Anyway, the roving was 100% wool roving purchased from Eco Farm at the Spa in Freeport Maine this year. It was full of VM (vegtable matter) and shorter noils, neps and fiber chunks. So that was a pain. I did manage to spin it very fine and do the three ply for either light fingering weight or even lace weight. Which is very cool! Oh, did I meantion that it was green? 😉

Ignore the lip gloss, it was to keep the pic from turning yellow. This is a 2-ply light finger-lace weight yarn. I handspu nit. Its polypay and on its way to becoming a baby sweater. I handwashed the polypay locks from Sandy, handcarded them on a rented drum carder and then tore the batts into chuncks an rolled those into rologs (one is pic’d in the pic). It was spun mostly woolen style (a first). Very soft and totally lofty! I love it! And I love spinning polypay! I do have to say the one batt I spun worsted style was very hard (stipped into roving). Once I switched to woolen it was so much easier and nicer! I had hoped to maek it a three ply, but that didn’t work out. Maybe with the rest of th batts. I only spun about 1/2 of them for the baby yarn. (this is only the last skein, not reskeined, just fulled).

  This is the roving of grey llama, marron merino and red firestar. It became this:

 “Mixed Doubles” Same name I gave the roving. It was a thicker single ply’d with a beaded gold thread with black eyelash/fun fur thrown in every so often and marron/black/multi-colored ladder novelty yarn thrown in as well. Its very cool! 138 meters.

 This is a handcarded batt of handdyed BFL and soy silk with a little white icicle. 50/50 BFL/Soysilk.

 It becamse a thick and thin single ply’d with a Japanesse novelty yarn. I purchased the novelt yyarn years ago in amden Maine. It is actually 2 strandes. 1, all white with little white flags. The other a white thread with white thread coming off as flags and little dots of color in the white flags. I ended up msotly coiling the two together and the nvoelty yarn totally shows through. I had meant to do occasional behives to cover the novelty yarn completely, but that only worked once. It is super soft and totally fun. I call it “Green Clown Confetti” 104 meters.

 This is the left over from my spinning. When I ran out of the novelty yarn. I broke off the thick and thin single and ended up coiling it around crochet cotton. My first “real” coil. About 9 meters. Its very fun and will be great for a fringe or something like that. Bad pic, but very soft!

 These are the ing’s I gatehred to spin an art yarn. Almsot all fothe fiber is from Sandy. I flicked the brown romney locks (and spun them all from the butt end). I flicked most of the yellow (eye poppin’) merino x locks, and tried to spin those from the butt end. The rest of the locks were too short or tangles so I fluffed those up. The lilac Jacob locks I just fluffed up. Their are also picked white cooridale locks (I didn’t like them picked. They seemed very tangled  ratehr then open). I fluffed up the white cotswold locks (and fluffed in the white icicle). I fluffed up commercially dyed mohair locks I already had (purples, blues, greens, and pinks) and fluffed throug ha little blue sparkle stuff. I nthe end I ended up fluffing the cooridale locks together with some easter grass (pink, clear, sparkly, dark and light green) as well as fluffed the fluffed merino x in with it.

 This is “Nuclear Trash” o nthe niddy noddy. It is a two ply. I don’t know the meterage as I haven’t set teh twist yet. I spun mostly a fine single of the ing’s (2 bobbins, fairly even amount). In the end I just sort of threw the corridale, merino and easter grass at the wheel and shoved it onto the bobbin. Then I ply’d the two bobbins andf I LOVE the ayrn! Its so fun, and very different! I love the mohair locks ply’s with the cotswold locks. And I LOVE spinning cotswold locks. They’re sort of a cross between mohair locks and Suri alpaca locks. So soft, shinny and nice! AGAIN, IT WAS LOADS OF FUN. I also had help doing the spinning, for the first time!

 She only chewed through one pf the singles once. And yes, it is way too hard to pet a cat, treadle, spin a single and take a pic at the same time. So don’t expect it to be purrfect! And, Bruiser even put up the the treadeling. Which was kind of liek me continually kneeing her from one side and then the other. What a love!

 She was much more help when it came to plying. She contributed a little hair, didn’t chew through the yarn. And just snuggled on my lap.

So, I am off to actually get to work on my many projects. I am not looking forward to it! All I really want to do is sleep, read, spin and not worry about doing projects that I don’t understand, will get a bad grade on and end up spending days ratehr then hours on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELP!

 

Guin



So, I think I have a problem. A serious problem.

 

I have fleece lust. I recently purchased fiber with about half of my free cash on ahnd. And not just any fiber, fiber from Monroe Wisc and a sheep freindly farm. (gotta love that place!). Almost all of the fiber was naturally colored. And about half is in roving or cloud form while the other half is in lock form. And guess what, I really have lock wants.

I would love to start seling my own yarns and dyed roving. Of course I’d really need to go a lot of work and build up a base of things to offer before I started an online shop. And almost all of what I’m willing to sell is homespun yarn. SO I started looking at different people’s shops (Spuny Eclectic, The Painted Sheep, Yarn Wench, Holly EQQ…) as well as loads of Etsy shops. That inevitably led to me looking at ebay. Now, I’ve never before looked at anything on ebay.

So, I was surprised with the different things I found and the very cheap prices. I mean, someone is selling a 7lb sheeps fleece for ninty nine cents, and the shipping is like $23. That is super cheap. This inevitably led to me scouring all of ebay looking at spinning fibers as well as fleeces.

I did end up purchasing some cotton roving, (1lb) for about $8, super cheap. I just hope its good quality!

And I have several fleeces that I’m “Watching” and major fleece cravings. On several blogs I’ve read about people sheering their animals now, and getting the fleeces ready to sell or send to be processed. And do I ever want to buy almsot all of the fleeces up for sale.

I have fleece longing! Serious fleece longing. I have logged onto ebay about 7 times today to look over those fleeces.

Soemthing is seriously wrong with me if I’m longig to own a bag of dirty fiber from someone who may or may not be sending me a good fleece.

But they’re so much fun to wash and process. To dye and spin from. To card or just to have.

Their, I admit it! I AM A FLEECE ADDICT, I have a problem!

So, hopefylly getting the (4lb) box of fiebr I ordered from Monroe will help with this longing. But I doubt it.

On a similar front I finished plying the first two bobbins of polypay yarn. I set the twist last night, and reskeined the yarn today. I got around 444 meters, ahving filled the bobbins about half full with yarn before plying for a pretty much full bobbin.

Its fairly uneven but all within fingering weight. And its very springy and lovely. A nice creamy whitee  color. I started to spin another bobbin of singles and its about 1/4-1/3 full. Unfortuanly I had to stop spinning to make a load of rologs as I’d run out of them.

College, well I hate it at the moment. B-cat is a bastard and I’d love to kick his ass. 2-d design was long and dull. Here, read a part of my email to a classmate who missed both classes (names have been deleted):

 

In 2-d design we looked at all of the ‘color wheels’, and discused those for about half of class. Mostly 2-d professor talked about how the different colores related to each other, how people organized them and the differences between hue, value, shade, intensity……
 
The rest of class was spent working on our cd pic thing. She gave everyone an extension, instead of it being due on Wen. it is due on Monday. She said we will be able to work on it next class so I bieve that we will be meeting in the computer lab. However she also wants everyone to bring in their guache paint, bristle board and a stack of magazines. (although she did say it won’t be like B-cat’s assignment).
 
 
In drawing only 4 of us had actually done the assignment. He pretty much ignored them. Although he did say I had done mine all wrong, I had broken all the rules. And of course he didn’t say what was wrong or what rules had been broken. And of course he never even told us any rules. I of course spent all weekened doing it and am beyond caring. He did say that if I just spent a little more time of it, it might be alright. Of course then he lectured abotu how we should all spend at least 3 hours on our homework. Altogetehr I’m pissed at him!
 
So, I really debated about sending you a pic of my finished ‘drawing’ because its all wrong. But I don’t know if I explained it well enough before. So I will attach a pic of it.
 
Bob set up a still life with a focused light and we had to draw it doing stippling. At the end of class you just pounded in that the one that were good had blacks instead of all grey’s. And he liked the ones that were detailed. He also liked the ones that didn’t just do one piece of the still life and then move onto the next piece. He liked the drawing where someone did one piece and radiated tehir drawing outward from there. (I’m assuming you rememebr stippling from 2-d).
 
Next class he says we will be doing another still life this time just using cross hatching. Our assignment will be to finish either the stippling or the cross hatching drawing. He doesn’t care which, we’re just supposed to do one of them.
 
Other then that B-cat was basically his jerky, lectureing self. He told alot of people their drawing was good, and by the time he got around the room again it was terrible (and they hadn’t touched it really).

 
So, thats basically it. Although I tonned down the language and didn’t really go into anything or actually say what b-cat was like. The fellow student ahs him as a teacher so they know, and they don’t really aprove of us complaining about him. I just wanted the student to know what they had missed and what was said and done.

 

Want to see the photo I attached? Well here it is.

 

 

See how aweful it is!

 

And what I didn’t add to the email was that ALL of the other students thought it was the best drawing. They all seemed to really like it.

I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!! Its so terrible!! And I literally spent like 27 hours working on it. So, I continue to be pissed off at B-cat. I have a very “screw you” attaitude now. And I am not going to touche this drawing!

Movies:

I did watch Atonment, it was alright but I don’t see what everyone else does it in. It was rather dull and silly.

I also watched Dan in Real Life, STUPID!!!!! The adds made it out to be soemthing of a family comedy. In reality it was a hopelessly failed mess of a romantic comedy!

The Painted Veil was alright. Very predictable, not very romantic or even dramatic. No mystery, just following a proscribed line. Not worth the time really. Perhaps as a book it would be better, but as a movie it wasn’t very good.

I am Legand, Dad really wanted to see this movie. Apparely their is a book that was written when he was younger by the same name. And I would surmise from the movie and his discription that the movie is very loosly based upon the book. Again not great. I would have said that it was alright but a dog was killed by its master so the movie was bad. Never kill an animal just to make the movie more dramatic or sad or anything like that!!!!!!!!!!!! Paticualrly not when the animal is the persons best friend, and only friend. Seriosuly, not only do so many pieces of fiction, written, radio, tv and movie have that theme, that its become overdone and rather cliche. I now seriosuly dislike and even hate evrything that kills an animal because it was someones best friend and gave its life for its master. Its just wrong!

Sydney White was dumb. A kids film, and a spoof off Snow White. Normally I love books and films and movies based off of a fairy tale. But this was just rather stupid. I think that some of the ideas were pretty good behind the movie, the whole who’s the most popular and all that. But the translation of the fairy tale into modern day didn’t work. 7 boys is a streach, but Rachel Wichburn was a terrible name. And overall it was unebleivable and stupid. Too much of Snow White is so mcuh full of the past and magic. Too much doesn’t translate into the poresant. Perhaps a spoof into the future, but not today.

All in all the movies were a disapointment.

Oh, Dad and I also saw 21 this weekened at the movie theature. Very long, if it was about half as long it would have been miuch better. Somewhat perdictable maine plot, and totally predictable subplot with the main char. I hate when they have this new guy come in, very innocent and pulled into something bad. They jsut do the bad thing as a “means to an end” and end up getting caught up in it. They get picked on a bit by the top dog, and the top dog overdoes soemthing and gets kicked out. The newer (once innocent) kids becomes cocky and looses everything he worked for. Then he redeams himself and gets what he lost back. Or he just gets the girl. To me it was like they were trying to make an epic journy film of a few days journey.

Dumb!

 

So, I’m off to troll after some fleeces, see if their are any deals so god I cannot say no. Look a little at the Monroe site and then off to bed. Tomarrow I have class again, 2-d design and then drawing with B-cat.

 

Best of luck all!

 

Guin



{April 1, 2008}   Spinning again, baby time!

Well, I still haven’t found/or looked for all of my passwords and usernames, nore have I logged back onto everything. However I was pleasently surprised to find myself logged onto Netfliks the last time I looked, without haveing to have found the password. Which was both nice and strange. The whole layout has changed, apparently to better offer me movies I’d like. But instead it just annoys me, I don’t want to see 4 movies for a few genre’s, I want a general collection of movies I’d like.

Anyway, I’ve started spinning again, while I have time. Okay, so monstly during vacation. I spun up a lovely light minty green single (hand-dyed BFL, and soysilk. Handblended both those and icicle and soemthing else which is excaping me at the moment). I plied that with this really cool novelty yarn my Mum and I got down in Camden way back when I actually knit and we actually went to Camden somewhat regualarly (read maybe 3 times a year). The novelty yarn was origionally from Japan, and it was two strands together. Mostly a white yarn with really tiny dots of color on just one of the two strands. I really liked it, I liked the scarf the yahd knit from it (I think a simple garter stitch scarf), basically I liked evrything but the name (clown novelty yarn, the Camden name anyway). I loved how it came in a little box and it had the japanesse slip of paper with the Japanesse figures. It was totally cool and I stashed it for a time when I was better at knitting. Along with a really cool blue and white silk yarn (which was really cheap because the ayrn was totally tangled and no one had the time or patience to untangel it. Real, it took about  years for its new owner (me) to untangle it.) I ended up almost coiling the soft green single around the novelty yarn. Sometimes the novelty yarn lumps (slubs) actually cover the novelty yarn, but most it coild around the novelty yarn with the little bits all poking out every which way. So very fun, and super soft! I ended up running out of the novelty yarn so I coiled the rest of the green single onto crochet cotton.

Unfortunatly I set both yarns liek I normally do (hot soapy water and plunger, cold water rinse, hot water and plunger, cold water rinse, then twack against the counter). SO they really lost alot of their shine and smoothness. They’re still super soft (I do reamember it was pretty much 50/50 BFL/soysilk. Both of which are supersoft by themselves!) but not really as glossy as I’d like. I think a nice rinse in warm water, a twack for the novelty yarn and tension for the coils would have been a betetr idea.

A yarn I completed sometime ago, but everyone needs pics:

campfire boucle

I also got out a batt of Boarder Lanchester dyed in purple which I bought from Spunky Eclectic (well I bought the locks and carded the batt of a rented drum carder). Yesterday I split and rolled the batt into rologs and spun a worsted yarn (worsted or wollen? I can never remember). Which was different and fun. I spun it to be a thicker single, rather soft.  I really like how itturned out, although the yarn did break twice while I reskeined it today. Earlier I had started to strip the batt into pieces of roving. So sometimes I’ll finish spinning the Boarder Lanchester and see which type I prefer, at least for this yarn. I think it will really be fun, particularly so see how different they are for knitting.

A doctor I visit happens to be pregnant so Mum’s knitting her a baby sweater (a sweater for the baby, duh!). Of course I now want to spin the yarn so I’ve gotten out all of those batts of white polypay I carded up. I split the first batt into strips and started spinning it that way, but find the short fibers keep escaping. So I think I’ll switch and make rologs out of the batts. Hopefully that will help with the problem (when I spun the polypay before I had handcarded them into rologs and I had the best time spinning the polypay). Its such a soft and smooshy fiber. I’m aiming to spin a three ply as a two ply apparently is really good for lace, it sort of shrinks up. But a three+ ply will actually expand and fill little gaps, basically be a very round yarn. I’m also aiming for a very soft and lofty yarn. Mum wants the sweater done by the end of April for my next appointment so I really have to get to it.

Of course I also have loads of school work. Want to see?

This is the partial charcole drawign I did for Drawing 1, and I hate it!:

 

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See how terrible it is! Oh my god! Its so bad! And of course the homework assignment for the weekened had been to go home and finish the drawing, set up another still life the fill in the space and finish it.

So, I started over. I taped this drawing to a board and stood it on an easle. Then I set up a still life, which had all of the basic compenants that this drawing has, adn then I added more things.

I drew the new still life (bad me, apparently we aren’t allowed to draw it. But I find I do better if I do draw it first). I took pics of the drawing for you, but the pencil is too light to see.

Here is a progress pic:

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Don’t mind that its crocked and I cannot find a way to turn the pic. Just take my word that its 100000000% better! I ended up spending the whole weekened on this, and I can tell you it is absoltuly amazing! Like you can step in and live in that balc and white and grey world. Sorry, no pics of it done. I forgot to take one and their is no way I am going to go dig it out now.

Unfortunatly the sound that the stumpers make gave me the worst headache, and of course I still had it really badly on Monday.

But I’m a college student, and I can’t possibly miss class because of a headache, ignoring the logic and the fact that I essentially dropped out of highschool because of my terrible debilitating headaches. So, I went to my first class, and thigns went down hill from their. I ended up spending the whole class practically holding my head and trying so hard to keep my eyes from rolling back into my skull. Between the advice of several other students and the dibilitation of my head I went home and slept for several hours. IE, unti lthe next day.

I emailed my drawing teacher to semi-lie and say that I was sick so I had missed class and could he please email me back and tell me what I had missed. And for once he was a good teacher and he did email me, and tell me what I had missed.

I fought and basically zombied tuesday, so wensday I felt alot better. But between group think (we all hate B-Kat, seriously, no one says anything nice!), the threatending snow, my fear of my headache coming back, and the annoyance with the dull and dumb class I left afetr 2-d Design. I skipped drawing for a second time. And you have no idea how terribel I felt. I feel so guilty about it. And I lied to the teacher, but he did give me the assignmetns and I did do them over the vacation. Although they aren’t all that good, at least to me.

Bruiser starting to play with a bug, in the background you can see Mum’s newest felted bag, which is super cool, other then the leather handles.

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I did manage to knit a pair of socks for the “A Loose Knit Group” march as sock month. They’re green, cotton and baby socks. They were super easy, and super quick. A great first sock project. Small enough to be simple and not so big that its too dull and takes forever. However, I don’t think I’ll be knitting another pair for a bit. They’re not my thing.

I also signed up for classes for the summer semester today, I’ll be taking Chemistry and its lab the first session with Susan Baker, which is incredibly awesome! I had bio with her and it was fantastic. She’s a great teacher, has too much energy (can I siphons some off and have that instead of caffeene?), and truly enjoys what she teaches. Now, I was warned that it would not count towards and biology or an archetecture degree (the two things I’m considering), so it is a wasted class. However ALL of the sciences courses “strongly recomend” a recent chemistry class. I hane NEVER had chemstry, so it will be a good class for me.

I had also planned on signing up for Algebra I and Algebra II this summer as refresher math courses. Well, apparently those are remedial math courses and I have taken Math 111, which is all I’ll need for the next bit anyway. And here I was freaking out thinking I needed math 112. So instead I will be taking US History II (they apparently don’t need to be taken in sequential order) the second semester, and I won’t be tkaing anything the third semester. Which frankly seems very good to me. I’ll haev some time to just relax without worrying about classes.

In addition I’ve come to realize taht I’ve taken basically all of the general core classes and I really need to make up my mind and start on a degree program. Rght now that’s looking seriously liek a degree in plant biology. Which I think is fascinating and fantastic and loads of other great things! Unfortunatly at UMA I cannot get a plant biology degree, I can get a general biology degree. But I’d have to disect animals and I REFUSE to do that. Hell, I don’t even eat animals, how could I cut them up. Luckily it looks like USM has a plant biology degree, so I think I’ll probubly end up going their for the second semester this next year.

Very cool, but a little scary. I’ve never lived alone. I’ve always had my aprent’s there if I needed them. I’ve been close to all my doc’s and I’ve been able to confide in my Dad when my headaches start getting worse and anxiety and depression worsen. And, I don’t actually have any friends. Certainly I have a few online, actually the best friends I’ve ever had. But I don’t ahev any friends in person, I don’t ahev epeople that I can hang out with. Which really scares me alot. I know I do alot worse when I’m not physically around people, and more then just in a classroom. Socially as well. So its hard, very hard and very scary!

I have an urge to dye fiber, a really big urge. Unfortunaly I haven’t had time. I’m really busy with classes. Infact I need to stop typing soon and get to work on some more things.

Soemtime soon I hope to write a blog post of doing internet research, my last chapter in Legal Research was all about that and I learned aot. Which I think could be really helpful for people! I f anyone actually read this, or rather that.

Anyway, best wishes and closing with Bruiser Cat as she helps me do school (drawing) work!

Guin

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